Lost In the Prairies.....Found by God

There are times where I wonder how much middleman understands and how much he doesn't.  Does he know how much God loves him?  Does he know how much God sacrificed for him?  Will he ever?  Then there are times that I love his child like innocent mind.  When asked if Jesus is in his heart, he answers "No, Jesus at church."  His mind will most likely always be innocent, honest and childlike.

 Today (Sunday) was Thomas' first day in a formal Sunday School setting.  I was worried with how much he would learn.  They were starting off with creation and what God created in 7 days.  I was unsure of how and what Thomas would understand.  

After church and a family lunch at a Chinese Buffet, we went for a walk along the river.  On the walk back to our car, I kept pointing out the grasshoppers for Thomas to look at.  There were quite a few along the paths.  I asked Thomas if he liked Sunday School and he said he did.  I asked if he learned about cars or God.  He answered God.  I then asked him who created the earth and he answered God.  That lead me to talk about all that God had created to him (obviously in words he could understand).  When I asked who created the grasshoppers, he answered "God!"  

I know that many of the dreams I had for Thomas may not come to fruition.  But one thing I do know, Thomas is exactly who God created him to be.

Sorry for the delay, but you can blame Blogger......

So yesterday was Middleman's Preschool Graduation. I have to admit that I was so so about going (sorry Mrs. Muffin). One because I feel so so about those little celebrations. I never cried dropping the Princess at kindergarten on the first day of school. Of course, that could be because of the fight over her shoes before dropping her off. I also know that I have one more year of him being “little” before he hits the big school as we have decided to keep him out of kindergarten one more year while we arrange for therapies to work with his autism.

That “A” word was the other reason I was a little apprehensive about going. Middleman does not do well in large crowds. He doesn't like the noise or that many people around his space. The last time we were in a large group he didn't know, he had a melt down. This is just one of the things we try to avoid. So, as I said I was a little so so about to going.

I'm glad now that we did. They had each of the classes go up to the stage, sing a song and then handed out diplomas. Did I mention that one the Babes made caps for each of the students? They looked so cute in their rainbow caps and their little outfits and frilly dresses. When it was Middleman's classes' turn, he ran up for his cap, which had to be green (I mentioned that to our helpful EA) and then ran back to mom. He was not going up the stage to do any song (this is normal, we're still shocked he went up there for the Christmas concert). He did, however, run up when his name was called for his diploma. He was so happy to get his paper with his name on it. Most of the moms were crying at this time. Not me. I was busy keeping Middleman from melting down from the clapping.

Then one of the parents made a photo montage of all the different classes. She had two songs, one I was unfamiliar with and the other was Vitamin C's Graduation Song. I was listening to the words of the song and the chorus choked me up.

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

Most of the kids at the preschool will be growing up together, going to the same school, being in the same classes. They will most likely know each other at their next graduation in 12 years. Not Middleman. He will be going to a new school and will be making new friends. This does sadden me. This graduation became not just a realization of my child moving from preschool, but that our family is moving and leaving our little community for a new community. I'm excited and scared just as each of these little preschoolers are about kindergarten. What will happen? Will they like me? Will I like them? These are questions our children ask about the big school, but they're also questions and worries I have in the move that we are making. I know and trust though that someone larger than me is leading us and will hold our family in His hands on that first day of “school”.

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