Tuesday, July 5, 2011

My Confession....

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. (James 5:16a) 
I confess that I have a stash of chocolate and I rarely share it with anyone, especially my kids.

I confess that I drink at least 4 cups of coffee a day.

I confess that I'm addicted to Drop Dead Diva.

I confess that I often don't put sunscreen on my kids.

I confess that most evenings I count the seconds until bed time.

I confess that I haven't finished the Bible in 90 Days challenge.  I stopped in Luke.

I confess that I haven't read a lot of blogs since January and that my Reader is intimidating and overwhelming.

I confess that I rarely respond to people's comments on my blog.  Something that I have been trying to work on.

I confess that I often judge and gossip about others especially when I am angry or jealous.

I confess that there are times I just want to get in my car and drive away and escape from life.

I confess that I give more of my time to my friends than to God or my family.

I confess that I struggle with forgiving people when I have been or feel that they have betrayed my trust or loyalty to them.

I confess that there have been too many times where I have felt hopeless and have been literally on the floor broken.

I confess that I don't often turn to God when I should.  That I try to do it my way and fail drastically.

I confess that I'm not perfect, nor am I organized, nor do I have it all together.  It usually feels like everything is balanced on a thread.

I acknowledge that I have a great and forgiving Father who continues to call me through the messy.  Who loves me just for me.  Who wants me to rest in His Word and presence and be whole in Him.

I acknowledge that I'm working on trusting Him and am breaking down the walls created to keep people out and me in, and allow Him to fix the hurt, lonely, broken, imperfect child who needs, calls and wants Him.

I'm linking up with Jen at Finding Heaven for Soli Deo Gloria Sisterhood.


kendal said...

i can say "me too" to so manyof your confessions....so glad we serve a merciuful god.

Tiffini said...

my jaw just dropped after reading how much we are alike! i say that with a very big smile:)
I could just give you a big hug. You and I are right where He wants us...broken and willing. The hard road..the only road to knowing Him maybe? really knowing. This is what He is showing me..i am thinking lately that through all of the yuck in my life...43 years worth..He wants me just to spend time with Him..throughout each day. I still struggle with how that looks because "religion" like to rear its head even though I know it is not about that AT ALL! He just wants to be my love..so that is where I am at today..and lately. I will get back to you on exactly how that is working and what that looks like...lol! I have not much of a clue yet...love ya

My daily walk in His grace! said...

Hi Michelle. Have you been reading my mind? You are not alone. I think we all walk this road and so long as we never give up and keep trying, God is gracious and just to forgive.
God bless

Katharine said...

Move over my friend, you have just written a post for both of us! God is soo good with all of this, He loves to hear us be open and honest, and you are so right, He is forgiving and present and full of Grace!!


As my good friend says, "We are all flawed." and I add we are all deeply loved . . . in our brokeness.


Anonymous said...

Me, too, friend, Me, too.

(and just go ahead and mark everything in your reader as "read". Trust me - it's so freeing!)

Aurie said...

Oh friend - let me give you a big hug!! Just mark everything in your reader as "read". trust me - it will be okay :)

You have just made a major life change - let go and let God care for you! He loves you {in spite of your confessions!!} and wants you to be happy and blessed!

Stefanie said...

I'll join you in the coffee and chocolate confessions. Though my friend still brings up the day we were out and about and she was having a bad day.
Finally I looked at her and was like, "do you want some chocolate?"
Things got better after that - really:-)
It pays to keep chocolate in your purse.
Just saying.

Pamela said...

Substitute tea for coffee and take out the blog reading -- my reader won't bring them up -- and you've just about described me. And if they don't, there's a flawed part of me to take its place. I'm thankful God loves flawed people like David, the woman caught in adultery, the woman at the well, Sarah, Saul and so many more. He not only loves us but uses us, too.


Courtney said...

I love the acknowledgments at the end, because isn't that the best part?! Could have written many of those confessions myself. Thanks for your honesty, and cling to grace.

Jen said...

This is beyond beautiful. Sometimes when we lay out our mess, when it becomes outside of us, it is so much easier to accept the forgiveness and move on. Love your honesty.

Kristin Bridgman said...

It looks like I'm just like the rest of you, move over and let me in!
I had a stash of chocolate, but they keep finding it!
I love to see such honest posts and meet women who share the same love for God as I do!
It's nice to meet you:)

Jenny Roan Forgey said...

Bless you sweet friend. I love this post. (Finally made it over here this week!) I'm so fried (tired), honestly, that I can't articulate why. Just wanted to let you know that I'm with you.

Also, I just read your comment on my "Prologue" post. Have you tried Larabars? If you get the fruit versions they are made with almonds and dates, I believe. You could also look at Mrs. May's crisps, made with sesame seeds, or their crunches (clusters of nuts and dried fruit - all non-dairy and gluten-free...not sure about how nut-allergy friendly they are, though, because they're probably made in a factory that makes peanut butter).

Hope that helps!

Sherri said...

I started reading your blog after my cousin Cheri started hers and I saw yours connected. Since then although not always a faithful reader and lover of the blog non the less. Reading this today is so refreshing to know that there are other women out there that are going through many of the same things as myself. I struggle with many things and guilt probably being close to the top of my list. (Can you tell I am a mom. LOL)
So I just wanted to say Thank You!

Mindy said...

Such a totally vulnerable confession. I admire your honesty.

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