Lost In the Prairies.....Found by God

In my prayer journal there is a section for confession. I daily lay before the Lord my transgressions. When I write these down there is a sense of letting God know that I acknowledge what I've done and what I need to work on. However, reviewing my daily entries it looks like I fall to the same sins every day - gossip, judging, anger, frustration.... Am I truly repentant or just that rebellious? Am I truly walking the walk or am I just talking a good talk.? Is the Holy Spirit truly living in me and do I reflect this?

I'm reading Francis Chan's new book the Forgotten God about the Holy Spirit. One of the things that has hit me while reading this book is that I truly am able to "grieve the Holy Spirit" (Ephesians 4:30 NIV). I never really thought about this - that my actions can make the Father sad enough to grieve. I love how the Message states this (parenthesis is mine):

I'm continually working on these things, but thankfully I am not working alone. The song I have chosen this week reflects a lot of my questions about my walk and my brokenness. That what it all comes down to is not about what I do, but what He did, He does and He will do in my life. Thank you Father for your Amazing Love.

Whisper in my ear
Tell me one more time
the words i long to hear
that i, i am forgiven

hold me in your arms
draw me next to you
safely by your side
i know i am forgiven

and i will never truly know
just why you love me lord
i am so broken and so desperate
still you love me more
lord, i love your amazing love

there's a beauty in the way
you cherish and embrace me
in all my brokeness i know
i am forgiven

and i will never truly know
just why you love me lord
i am so broken and so desperate
still you love me more
lord, i love your amazing love

and i lift my hands
in worship at your throne
and i raise my heart
so thankful lord for what you've done