Friday, October 21, 2011

Caffeinated Randomness - I Apologize

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Since earlier this year, it seems like I have been on a blogosphere hiatus.  It started with the Bible in 90 days and then there was the move.  I feel like I am still struggling to find either the time or just will to get to the blogosphere.  I try to read my reader and then become overwhelmed, when I stay away for a few days, at the number of new reads.  I think it has to do with my personality to do it all or not do it at all.  Therefore I usually just avoid, as it seems easier than having to try to wade through Google Reader.

But it is not just my reader I struggle with reading.  It is also some the weekly links to Caffeinated Randomness.  I admit it.  I make plans to read them and then things come up during the weekend and I forget.  I make plans to myself to read them by Monday morning, but then it is a new week and I am on to another week of blogging or just life.  

Why am I telling you this?  I want to apologize.  I have been struggling through many things this week.  I question why even though I write a blog and have 101 followers, why there are very few views on the blog.  I came to this realization.  That just as I have a relationship with God and have to work on that relationship, so too do I have to work on my bloggy relationships.  I have taken for granted that people would link up on Fridays.  I take for granted that people would read my blog.  But if I'm not also working on the relationship and reading others thoughts, dreams and struggles, how can I expect them to read about mine.  I can't.  I hope that none of you ever feel like you have done anything wrong.  I am willing to admit that this is my problem; that I have caused this situation myself.  

I have decided to get back and work on our relationships.  As a result I will be clearing out my reader daily.  If I don't get to read it one day, I will just clear it.  That way every day is fresh and I won't be overwhelmed.  Nor will I feel bad if I miss one day due to life of if I just want to take a break.  I also will be reading the link ups to Caffeinated Randomness during the day Friday and then Sunday evening.  These are times when I am home and am able to sit with my lap top. 

I want to thank all of you who have stuck with me through this year.  Believe me it has been a wild year.  I appreciate your continued support.  I look forward to seeing you here.  I love to see you here.  You brighten my day and cheer me up.  You have gotten me through some rough times. 

I know that this plan is a work in progress, just like me.  It may be a bumpy ride, but it's a ride that I wouldn't change.  I can't wait to catch up with you guys.

Come join in with the randomness today.

3 comments:

kendal said...

i am SO with you on an overwhleming number of blogs to read, and i don't even host a linky. i feel like if i can't read everyone, i will read no one.... praying for you, friend.

Andrea said...

You are on the right track giving yourself permission to not have to read everything every day. I look at it this way - you don't talk to or see every single person you know every single day, so why should you feel the pressure to do so online? It doesn't mean they aren't on your heart or that you don't care about them. It just means you are living life the best way you can and doing those things God has asked you to take care of. Don't worry - I don't think God wants any kind of community to be a burden to us.

Sherri said...

I will pray for you that things get easier. Sometimes it is so hard when you life is turned completely around to pull yourself back to normal. I totally understand that.
Do what you can and do not worry about the rest. Sooner rather than later you will feel like your old self.

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